Write somethin to stay sane

Lately I try to regularly write everything in my head instead of let them running and jumping around in my mind. This activity has made me stay sane (I think. haha!)

These are some of them:

Release your worry (09/03)
As usual, let's write down your feeling and thought that keep dominating you and making you uncomfortable in doing anything.
I'm overwhelmed by too much thing that need to be mastered, but in some cases I feel so stupid because I could not solved an easy problem. That makes me worried and stop progressing. My mind's tired thinking which one to be learned first and which one next. Statistic, Python, R, Data Visualization, Search Engine Optimizer, Machine Learning, etc. Not forget to mention the technical problem like bad internet connection which consistently cheese me off. I also need better laptop to perform a good analysis for big data.
An opportunity that can never be missed, to be a part of DSI team preparing DSI Boothcamp also does take me in to the next level of stress. I'm afraid I could not perform well preparing such press release for the Grand Launching. It has to be prestige as big data itself is indeed very precious. If I don't make it, I am going to kill my new network and my future in data science.
What else that makes me this stressful? The money that I need for this and that. I need better phone so I borrow some money. Even to buy a new affordable phone, I have to borrow first! How embarrassing. There is only 100.000 rupiah in my wallet and it is still March 9th. I keep thinking to have more money, but I don't have much time. Or I just think too much and less action and talk and mourn tooooo damn much.
I am thinking to create a blog. That activity also will contribute to my skill in SEO. But I get stuck just when I am thinking about the topic.
I'm getting crazy. 

After my running time (09/03)
I felt sooooo down before I finished running today. You can read how I felt in the previous note. Well, my sane thought told me to stay on my first schedule --rather than just rolling over and over on that uncomfortable bed--to do Lari Lari Canci (read:  3K Running).
It was my third run at my new place after I ran last Saturday and the first one was last month. Yes LAST MONTH! How inconsistent I am doing sport. I used to regularly running. But still, the regular term refers to "once a week if I remembered to bring my sport shoes to work or if it was not raining". Anyway, I don't care if I was inconsistent. I have to make it regular. I know regular run have so many advantages, my friends at social media follow this good thing, and I just don't want to sit and watch them become healthier and smarter, and I here get weaker day by day.
So thanks to my sane thought, I ran 3K today. It got better from the last time. One thing that I learned that time, which actually it has anonymously said, "we often give up on a goal when we almost achieve it."
But no I did not give up on that running. My target was that end of Praja road, and when I see the finish line, I was so tired that I could not stand it anymore. But then I ran slower to control my breath. I told myself, "you almost there, Metha, You can do it." AND YES I TOUCHED MY FINISH LINE!! The imaginary line that I made by myself. And I felt so good about that. Then I turn my route back to my place with a smile. And I told to myself, "implement this trust and faith when you are facing Python. Focus on your short goal, day by day. It is okay if it is hard and gets harder. You just need to try a little bit harder..